November 2011
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I hate it.
Hate.
Hate.
Hate.
it.
More specifically, you.
Because I’m remembering, and it hurts.
I’ll forget soon, I’ll pretend I’m infatuated with someone else.
I know I’m not.
So don’t worry,
I’ll remember you.
I’ll always remember you.
And I’ll never truly hate you, because you treated me well. Until, until you hurt me....
Dear tomorrow, please please PLEASE be easy.
I think… my head’s about to explode.
I feel, so sick. On the bright side, if I do end up vomiting, I’ll lose some of this gross weight I’ve gained due to Thanksgiving.
Words are LOUD, and people can hear them.
Bitches ain't Shit
though I suffer from dyslexia and mild manorexia...
I have to be happy alone, before I can be happy with someone else.
yourlifeondrugs:
I…I can’t remember what it feels like to kiss someone.
I realize,
I have changed.
But, it’s for the better.
It’s a good change.
I’m not who I was at the start of 2011.
I’m not her at all.
But I like this Meg. I like her a lot.
Yesterday, is yesterday. Today is today. Tomorrow...
Yesterday
We were just driving. We were carefree, laughing, and talking about what a beautiful day it was. It was a very beautiful day.
We stopped at the intersection. I should have said, turn right. But I didn’t. I wasn’t thinking. I let us go straight, and not until we were in the middle of the intersection did I say “Hey we needed to turn right”
At that point, I turned my own...
My parents, want me to go to bed.
I don’t think they realize… I’m avoiding it there. I don’t want to think. I don’t want to be alone.
I definitely want to write about the experience later. I just want to wrap my mind around said events first. I’m sorry if I’m making it a big deal. Things like that happen all the time, but I’ve never experienced it. None of us had and it was terrifying.
When you can achieve happiness on your own, that’s true happiness.
So thankful. I wish I felt like this everyday.
I am thankful for you.
I think one of the main reasons I can call you my best friend is because we’ve gone through our shitty times, together.
It’s so easy to turn away from someone when they’re not happy. It’s easiest to be friends with someone when they’re carefree. But guess what, in life we’re not always optimistic. I felt the cold sting of people turning their backs on me this...
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I just felt an overwhelming rush of emotions. I guess that’s what you get from reflecting on your journal from the past 5 months. Dang, I have a lot of feelings.
Just kidding, now’s the time…. 30 minutes later.
#PHYSICS
Well,
I guess I’ve wasted enough time on tumblr
Time to study physics.
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Just turned on my phone. Stupid choice, back off.
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I’ve gotten to the point where I have to turn off my phone while I wait for a response. Of course it’s disappointing when I turn my phone on, but at least this way I know my phone won’t go off so I’m not waiting until I turn it back on.
King's Park
La Dispute will never cease to amaze me. Their lyrics are so powerful and poetic.
Another shooting on the southeast side. This a drive-by, mid-day, Outside of the bus stop, by Fuller and Franklin. Or near there. Not far from the park. About a block from where the other shooting was last Month. Or was it last week? Shots were fired from an SUV heading northbound, Eastown, The target a rival but...
I’m hungry, that’s all I want to feel. Hungry.
Ya know, if you ever want someone who actually respects herself, I’m here.
But for now, go out and have your fun.
I guess we can be friends. Too bad it won’t be much of a friendship since you have other priorities and the girls you want to be friends with you also want to mess around with. Our odds of being friends are slim since there’s no romantic interest to base it off of.
...
Sometimes, I feel like crap, for feeling like crap, when there’s always something worse.
Goodness, I’m so mad at myself.
I have some horribly depressing things I could write here, but what’s the point? It won’t accomplish much. I’m just an idiot basically.
Rock on.
I really think I deserve a medal for my speediness in the mornings. I woke up at 7:15. Took a shower, Ate breakfast, brushed teeth, blow dried my hair, drove to school, and made it to first hour by 7:45. C’mon, that deserves something right?
It’s all going to be okay.
I can’t decide if I’m getting ready to set myself up for failure or not…
But, I don’t want to be too scared to try. Who knows, miracles happen, right?
I suppose I’ll give it a shot.
While I’m up chasing my own dreams, Sailing around the world.
Please know that I’m yours to keep.
I am going to get a “B” in Calc.
A “B.”
THE LETTER…. B.
I have never gotten a “B” in my life. It’s unheard of, and I hate that I just went around thinking it would all be alright, because it wasn’t. I’ve learned that the hard way. I needed to do something about this myself. And before anyone goes and tells me “it’s a hard...
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I don’t know what it is about today, but there’s this little thing bothering me about human nature right now.
Our tendency to look for tragedy. This search has to do with our desire to feel some sort of sympathy from others. I feel like, there are certain people who aren’t genuine when they say “Pray for so-and-so” because they only want points for seeming to be a...
Random people: Making her past →
random-people:
Her future is so open, so undefined, so unlimited. Nothing is decided yet, she can still do everything, choose everything, go everywhere. It is excited to know her story is still incomplete, that the ending is not yet determined. At the same time it is scary, if your life can go everywhere it can…
theseawillsetyoufree:
You know, it’d be fine with me if someone showed up at my doorstep right now and kissed me. Because I’m in one of those moods. I want to be held. I want to be appreciated. I want to be loved. But, alas. Love is just not in the cards for me right now.
Storge, Philia, Éros & Agápe
Those are all the different words for “love” in the Greek language.
The Greeks were smart and decided, oh hey, maybe we should be able to express love with multiple words since one word cannot encompass such a strong feeling.
So, here in American I can love a burger as well as a person. It’s the same word, but two entirely different meanings. We just throw around the l-word...
I hate love you.
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All of the moves, make up for the silence.
It’s weird, even though I want to cry uncontrollably every time I think about that hug, this weird part of me wants to smile. Yes, it hurt… but for a while, you just held me and let me cry. I know I have to say goodbye to you sooner or later, and I guess a part of me is still holding on. But in that moment I just let loose because I knew you weren’t coming back to sw xc. I knew,...
Reflections on today
I wasn’t expecting much from today, but it went differently than I thought it would.
I had no intention of going to school, but I somehow got my ass out of bed and in my car to make it to the mentor meeting with a pounding head. I sat and talked with my beautiful friends Jessie & Caroline.
And la di da, I went through my school day. Nothing noteworthy except I acted and embraced who I...
I don’t know what it is I’m looking for, but I hope I find it soon.
I seem to have low self-esteem
and I think you’re the cause of it.
