A month ago I finished my last AP exam which meant the end of high school. I should have felt a huge sense of relief but on the contrary. After going, going, going for so long it’s challenging to simply exhale. So I went and hung out with my counselor and he told me a month from now I’d feel it. I’d be relieved and focusing on poignant moments.
And to an extent, I am.
I was supposed to be blowing bubbles and sitting in a pool but here’s what I did instead:
Went on a bike ride and made friends with a snapping turtle.
Got my guy friend to sit through OTH with me
Watched my brother play baseball
And listened to my grandpa tell me about the “olden days” and his rebellious adolescent days.
The last part was probably my favorite because I love listening to my family and I’m grateful to have them around.
But I don’t know if I’ve quite exhaled yet. And maybe I never fully will because I’m bad at letting go.
In fact I still feel slightly lost because I’m used to being busy and not used to having the freedom that I do currently.
But I also like it, and it’s time for me to start figuring out how to live without the need of a goal or agenda, but simply being.
How to use your white privilege
If the “passing privilege” person is looking at this blog, this is one thing you can do, if you’re up to it.
Level of caring is pretty nonexistent right now
It either proves you’re a fraud or I’m incredibly naive.
I want to get lost a bit, so that when I’m found
Hi. I know I don’t have very many followers and whatnot, but if anyone sees this, could you maybe pray for my mom? She has a lot of health problems and they think she’s going blind so next week, she’s having eye surgery. I’m just really scared and I guess we could use all the prayers we can get. Thanks if you do, and if you don’t that’s okay too. I love you no matter what. Ok bye friends.